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June’s Book Club with David Nailer

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Hello darlings! It’s time for David’s Book Club Reviews, and I’m absolutely thrilled to be joining the fabulous folks at 2SHADES this month. What a dazzling array of reads we’ve had!

From a sSmelly kid who defies the odds to become a number-one porn star and entrepreneur (yes, really!) to a stylish serial killer stalking London’s high society and showbiz darlings—this month’s selection did not disappoint. And let’s not forget the gripping Bleeding Fabulous: The Life of a Haemosexual—a memoir bursting with sequins, survival, and serious heart.

There’s also a gorgeously dark gothic horror set in Victorian London that sent shivers down my spine and had me clutching my feather boa in suspense. Plus, 13 other twisty, chilling, and utterly addictive short stories in Criminal Pursuits 2—each one more devious than the last.

Yes, my loves, they all get five stars from me. Call me generous if you will, but I had an absolutely fabulous time reading every single one. Drama, danger, glamour, grit—and always a twist in the tail. What more could a queen ask for?

If you’re looking for thrills, spills, and a few cheeky chills, these are the books to curl up with (preferably with a cocktail in hand).

Until next time,
Love, David 💋

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Review of Criminal Pursuits 2: This Is Me – 14 Dark Gems of Crime Fiction
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Criminal Pursuits 2: This Is Me is a superbly curated anthology of fourteen dark, twisted, and utterly engrossing short stories from some of the sharpest minds in contemporary crime fiction. As with the first volume, this second instalment delivers diverse voices and inventive plots, drawing readers into a variety of shadowy worlds where justice is murky, morality bends, and the human psyche is pushed to the brink.

Each story offers a unique lens into the criminal mind—ranging from psychological thrillers to revenge tales, noir romance, dystopian pacts, and unnerving hauntings. From the man teetering on the edge of a high building, to the woman whose inheritance turns deadly, the anthology brims with tension, clever twists, and haunting imagery. There’s a satisfying blend of styles, from hard-boiled grit to eerie suspense, that keeps the pacing lively and the reader guessing.

But the undeniable standout is Killer Queen by Steven Smith.
Stylish, razor-sharp, and steeped in a deliciously dark sense of camp, Killer Queen turns the serial killer trope on its head. Smith’s flair for the dramatic meets a gritty crime plot as he introduces a killer with charisma, vengeance, and unrelenting flair. The story pulses with queer energy and glittering menace, without ever losing sight of its emotional core. It’s daring, provocative, and gloriously subversive—exactly the kind of story crime fiction needs more of.

This powerful collection includes a heartfelt foreword by Lisa Allen, CEO of Pink Ribbon, who reminds us of the real-life battles many face every day. Fittingly, all profits from this anthology go to the breast cancer charity Pink Ribbon, making this both a gripping read and a meaningful cause.

An absolute must-read—for your bookshelf and your heart.

Review of Smelly Kid by Andy Lee 

Smelly Kid by Andy Lee (with Dave Taylor) is a raw, unflinching memoir that grips you from the first page and never lets go. With a title that hints at both humour and hardship, the book plunges readers into the unforgiving world of a poverty-stricken Dublin childhood, where abandonment, hunger, and homelessness were part of daily survival.

By the age of twelve, Andy had already experienced more loss than many do in a lifetime—left without parents and living on the margins of society. What makes Smelly Kid so compelling, however, is not just the depth of suffering, but the incredible resilience that rises from it. Through heartbreak, Andy never loses his fighting spirit, and his story becomes one of transformation and hope.

Lee’s voice is honest, gritty, and disarmingly humorous. He recounts harrowing moments with clarity and purpose, but also with surprising warmth. Whether it’s finding brief refuge in the kindness of a stranger or navigating the chaotic streets of inner-city Dublin, his story resonates with a raw authenticity. His later journey into the adult entertainment industry is told with the same candid honesty, showing how unexpected paths can lead to reinvention and, ultimately, self-empowerment.

Smelly Kid is not your typical rags-to-riches tale. It’s more than a memoir—it’s a testament to human endurance and the possibility of hope in even the bleakest circumstances. Gritty, heartbreaking, and ultimately inspiring, this is a story that lingers long after the final page.

For anyone who believes that the past defines the future, Andy Lee proves otherwise. Smelly Kid deserves its glowing 4.8-star rating—it’s bold, unforgettable, and deeply moving.

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The Soul Thief by S.L. Howe – 

Samantha Lee Howe’s The Soul Thief is a deliciously dark slice of gothic horror that plunges readers into the chilling depths of Victorian Manchester. A haunting and atmospheric tale, this novel is perfect for fans of Sarah Waters, Carly Reagon, and anyone who enjoys eerie mysteries by candlelight.

Set in 1888, the story follows the weary Dr. Warren Carter as he navigates long, gruelling nightshifts at a hospital cloaked in shadows. When the enigmatic and beautiful young nurse Rosie vanishes without a trace after a late-night drink, the unsettling tone is set. More disappearances follow, and soon, a private investigator is drawn into a web of creeping dread and escalating horror.

Howe masterfully conjures a fog-soaked world where danger flickers just beyond the reach of gaslight. The novel’s strength lies in its brooding atmosphere, tight pacing, and an undercurrent of psychological unease. From the moment Dr. Carter’s carefully ordered world begins to unravel, readers are drawn into a nightmare that feels both timeless and intensely personal.

The writing is richly evocative, and the characters are sharply drawn—each with secrets that deepen the mystery. The blend of supernatural elements with the harsh realism of Victorian medicine creates a visceral contrast that heightens the suspense. The twists are deftly delivered and genuinely surprising, with the final chapters veering into thrilling, pulse-pounding territory.

With glowing praise from readers and reviewers alike, The Soul Thief delivers on every gothic promise: a crumbling setting, spectral threats, and a slow-burn horror that lingers. This is a novel to savour on stormy nights, ideally with a flickering candle and a cup of something strong.

Dark, twisty, and utterly absorbing, The Soul Thief is Victorian horror at its finest.

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Review of Bleeding Fabulous by Mark Ward –

Bleeding Fabulous: The Life of a Haemosexual is a powerful and unapologetically bold memoir by Mark Ward—a man whose life defies the odds, the stigma, and the silence surrounding one of the darkest chapters in UK medical history. With extraordinary candour, wit, and resilience, Ward recounts his journey from an ordinary boy in Letchworth to becoming the world’s first LGBTQ+ Ambassador for Haemophilia.

Infected with blood-borne viruses through contaminated NHS blood products, Ward faced not one, but multiple death sentences. Yet, as he puts it, “Faced daily with my own mortality, I chose to live fabulously.” And live fabulously he does—feather boas and all—delivering a narrative that is as heartbreaking as it is uplifting.

Far more than a personal story, Bleeding Fabulous is a searing indictment of the Infected Blood Scandal, a tragedy that devastated thousands. Ward’s role in campaigning for justice, including his instrumental work toward securing the long-awaited public inquiry, demonstrates his tireless courage and commitment to others affected by bleeding disorders, regardless of their sexuality.

What sets this memoir apart is its fearless humour, warmth, and emotional honesty. Ward invites readers into the rawest parts of his life, without ever losing his sense of style or spirit. His writing is elegant, often funny, and always deeply human. With a foreword by Sam Stein KC and praise from leading legal and medical voices, this memoir is both a personal triumph and a vital historical record.

Bleeding Fabulous is, quite simply, remarkable—a testimony to survival, to living boldly, and to fighting for truth and dignity in the face of systemic injustice.

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A beautifully written, fiercely important, and undeniably fabulous read.

TATA FOR NOW . XXX David

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From Horror to Heart: Steven Smith Talks ‘Killer Queen’, Writing Risks, and What Comes Next Interview by Adishri Chengapa for 2Shades

Steven Smith with the head of Pink Ribbon Lisa Allen all the profits from Criminal Pursuits got to the Pink Ribbon .https://telos.co.uk/shop/crime-mystery-and-thriller/criminal-pursuits/criminal-pursuits-this-is-me/

With his hotly anticipated new novel The Hacking on the horizon, author Steven Smith is showing no signs of slowing down. Always one to surprise, he’s taken an exciting detour into chilling new territory with his latest work — a darkly gripping short story titled Killer Queen. The tale features in the spine-tingling anthology Criminal Pursuits, edited by award-winning writer Samantha Lee Howe and created in support of the Pink Ribbon breast cancer charity.

Marking his first foray into the horror genre, Killer Queen promises suspense, social commentary, and a twist of the macabre. And if the glowing early reviews are anything to go by, this debut dip into horror certainly won’t be his last.

In this exclusive feature, 2Shades’ very own Queen of Conversations, Adishri Chengapa, sits down with Steven to talk twisted tales, creative risks, mental health, and what really scares him — beyond the page.

Adishri and Steven picture by Annemarie Bickerton .https://www.annemariebickerton.co.uk

Adishri: Steven, what is Killer Queen about — without giving too much away?

Steven: In a nutshell, it’s a horror story, yes — but also a reflection on society and the illusionary nature of fame and show business. We live in a time where, if The Emperor’s New Clothes were written today, the boy shouting, “He’s naked!” would probably be sued or cancelled. The victims in Killer Queen see only what they want to see — and that’s ultimately their downfall.

Adishri: How did you get involved with Criminal Pursuits?

Steven: I was chatting with my great friend, Samantha Lee Howe — who is, quite frankly, the queen of horror stories — and she mentioned this anthology she was curating in support of the Pink Ribbon breast cancer charity. As soon as I heard about it, I jumped at the chance to be involved. I’d had the idea for Killer Queen bubbling in the back of my mind for a while, and Sam, as both an editor and an author, is incredibly encouraging. Once I got started, the hard part was actually keeping it short!

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Adishri: Your first book, Powder Boy, was quite the shocker. Do people see you differently now?

Steven: People often ask me that. Powder Boy was about a womanising, coke-dealing charmer. Honestly, maybe because I’m a gay man, some people assumed I couldn’t have written it — particularly because it features a lot of heterosexual erotica. That’s almost insulting. One of my strengths as a writer is observing and listening. Many of my male friends are what they call straight, and I don’t find it difficult to see things from their perspective. Most of the “conquests” in Powder Boy are based on real stories I’ve been told! If people see me in a different light because of it, so be it. If they genuinely think I am that character — then they’re probably not the kind of people I need in my life anyway.

https://www.amazon.com/Powder-Boy-Steven-Smith/dp/B09L4KJ5VS

Adishri: Have you always wanted to write?

Steven: Always. I was writing little plays and short stories from a very young age. I’m slightly dyslexic, but no one really noticed. I have an O-level in English Literature and Oral English — but I failed English Language. I was labelled “careless” and “stupid,” and that kind of trauma kept me away from writing for years. In today’s world, the way I was treated to help with things like homework would probably be considered abusive.

I respond best to encouragement — being lifted up, not torn down. It was journalist Jane Moore who changed my life. She asked me to write a column, and I tried every excuse to get out of it, but she wouldn’t take no for an answer. Thanks to predictive text and writing tools, being dyslexic isn’t the barrier it once was. Jane gave me the push I needed, and it turns out I had a flair for writing and interviewing. Helen Galley, a brilliant teacher of journalism, taught me the technical side of freelance writing — and I’ve never looked back.

Picture Annemarie Bickerton https://telos.co.uk/shop/crime-mystery-and-thriller/criminal-pursuits/criminal-pursuits-this-is-me/

Adishri: You write often about mental health. Do you feel men are opening up more about how they feel?

Steven: Not enough. Society still expects men to be these stoic John Wayne types — never showing emotion, never being vulnerable. That attitude is changing slowly, but there’s still a long way to go. We need to teach kids from an early age that it’s okay not to be okay — and also equip them with the tools to cope with real life, including bullying and rejection. Especially if you’re creative or different in any way, you’re going to stand out — and be a target

“Big boys don’t cry” is one of the most harmful phrases ever invented. I know someone with severe anxiety who would rather say they had an incurable disease than admit what they were really struggling with. That’s tragic.

Steven with award winning writer Samantha Lee Howe . https://telos.co.uk/shop/crime-mystery-and-thriller/criminal-pursuits/criminal-pursuits-this-is-me/

Adishri: You’re 64 now. Do you have any regrets?

Steven: That makes it sound like I’m dying! [laughs] But yes, I’m 64. And sometimes when I look in the mirror, I still see that scared little boy looking back. Regret, to me, is a self-indulgent emotion. I’ve had some amazing experiences and opportunities, but I’ve also endured things that would make most people wonder how I’m still here. I treat them as life lessons. I move on.

Maybe I regret not pursuing certain relationships — a few people made offers I didn’t take up. But overall? I’m lucky to be me.

Picture Anne Marie Bickerton. https://telos.co.uk/shop/crime-mystery-and-thriller/criminal-pursuits/criminal-pursuits-this-is-me/

Adishri: What are you working on next?

Steven: My sister Karen read Killer Queen and said it was “smart, dark, and totally captivating.” She’s not one for false praise — she’s very no-nonsense — and she thinks it would make a great full-length book. So that’s something I’m exploring.

I’m also putting the finishing touches on a very personal project — a book about my late partner, titled Annand and Me. And I’ll be launching a podcast later this year.

Quickfire Round

Sushi or steak?
Sushi. I don’t eat red meat or pork.

Favourite films?
Blade Runner, Breakfast at Tiffany’s, and All About My Mother.

Biggest turn-off?
People who think it’s okay to fart in public. Honestly.

If you were mayor for a day?
I’d fine people who walk while texting or staring at their phones. And I’d get to work immediately on helping the thousands of homeless people in London and across the UK.

What do you find romantic?
I haven’t been on a date in ten years. Even my First Dates date cancelled on me! But to me, romance can be something simple — like walking through a park or sharing lunch with someone you love.

Madonna or Lady Gaga?
Madonna — all the way. I know as a gay man I’m supposed to go wild for Kylie’s Padam Padam or Lady Ga Ga’s Abracadabra — but I find them irritating. I like Charlie XCX, but I’m more of a Lou Reed and Bowie fan at heart.

End. 

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Frances Barber

Yes she is back rush to get your tickets Frances Barber is revising her role as Billie Trix in MUSIK . Here is a chance to read an old interview https://wiltons.org.uk/whats-on/musik/?utm_medium=paid&utm_source=fb&utm_id=6738324614492&utm_content=6738324614292&utm_term=6738324614092&utm_campaign=6738324614492&fbclid=IwY2xjawKUYcBleHRuA2FlbQEwAGFkaWQAAAYhAiaT7GJyaWQRMDdFa3VNSUZiVFhDUFg2WUwBHtxZTOefyfQEcI2Tp_6T4ceeeAYF9pywZrnuZVjMu8IhMckfz19pVQ_-lduT_aem_AxBADBFBU3XzTe2Bkfq9Tw

Frances Barber Talks to Steven Smith

A true gay icon blows into town this October with her one-woman show. No, I’m not talking about Madonna — this icon of the stage won’t charge you hundreds to see her and will be on time. Frances Barber will be reviving her role as Billie Trix, the washed-up, drug-taking pop star who will have you howling with laughter. Steven Smith chats with Frances ahead of the show.

You appeared in ‘Closer to Heaven’ at the Arts Theatre in 2001, written by Jonathan Harvey with music by the Pet Shop Boys. It’s said that ‘MUSIK’ was written especially for you. How did you get together, and what makes the collaboration work so well?

It seems like yesterday that Closer to Heaven opened to savage reviews. It was ahead of its time — the critics just didn’t know what to make of it. Most of them had no idea about clubs like Heaven or the gay scene and drug culture. But one thing they did take to was Billie Trix, the washed-up, drug-taking German singer I was lucky enough to play.

Jonathan Harvey is a brilliant writer, and the Pet Shop Boys’ music is superb. It’s been 19 years since the show opened and we’ve remained friends. One night at dinner we just said, “We have to do it.” We’re all passionate about what we do, so it works well.

I was lucky enough to see ‘MUSIK’ the first time around — it was simply genius! What were your musical influences growing up, and what about now?

Well, you might be surprised by how eclectic my taste is. Being one of six children, I had diverse music coming at me from all angles. My older siblings were into Eric Clapton, Cream and The Beatles, while Mum and Dad liked Sinatra and Shirley Bassey. My mum would’ve been bowled over if she’d seen me at her 80th birthday!

For me, Northern Soul, Punk, and David Bowie’s Aladdin Sane were huge influences.

If you had actually met Andy Warhol, what two questions would you have asked him?

Oh gosh! First, how did he come up with the idea for the Campbell’s soup images? Was he under the weather, opened a tin, and thought, “Here’s an idea”?

And second, the obsession he seemed to have with Marilyn — the four images he created: victim, survivor, manipulator, glamour. I’ve always wondered what he really thought of her.

Your character in ‘MUSIK’, Billie Trix, transitions from music to art. If you could spend one day at any gallery in the world, where would it be? Whose artwork do you find most inspiring?

To be straight with you, I’m not an art connoisseur myself. I just know what I like, and I enjoy going to galleries and looking at art. The Rijksmuseum in Amsterdam is one of my favourites — the lighting there is beautiful, and The Night Watch is so powerful.

Peter Greenaway brings art to his films in so many ways, but it’s his lighting that’s truly magical. Filming A Zed & Two Noughts was just a beautiful experience.

Billie Trix amusingly appears to inhale half of Peru during the show! Drugs are increasingly prevalent in the UK and LGBTQ+ party community — especially ‘Ket’ and ‘GHB’, which are sadly linked to deaths. Do you think ‘MUSIK’ will spark conversations about drug use or glamorise it? Is there enough public information about these newer drugs?

Look, what people do is none of my business — we’re all grown-ups and live our lives. But yes, this new trend does worry me, especially for young people. I only became aware of chem-sex parties while I was working in LA.

People can do what they like, but when you read that someone has raped over 170 people using one of these popular drugs, you really think: it’s time for more education and awareness.

You’re a gay icon and also a passionate supporter of LGBTQ+ rights. Are you concerned that these rights might be affected by the current political climate, those who voted against gay marriage and LGBTQ+ education in schools without parental consent?

My feeling is that Boris Johnson is more liberal than his predecessors. He has a little crazy streak in him and I don’t think he’ll allow LGBTQ+ rights to be rolled back — at least I hope he won’t. But let’s not forget, there are people in all parties who don’t exactly wave the rainbow flag.

You resigned from the Labour Party and criticised Jeremy Corbyn. Were you surprised by the election results? Would you consider returning under a new leader, and do you see any strong candidates emerging?

I joined the Jewish Labour Movement, so I still have a vote. Like many others, I was expecting a hung parliament — it was a bit of a wake-up call. Lisa Nandy is getting my attention as a potential leader, though.

You appeared alongside Annette Bening, Jamie Bell, Vanessa Redgrave and Julie Walters in Film Stars Don’t Die in Liverpool. Have you ever considered moving to Los Angeles? Do you feel more passionate about film or theatre?

Oh, I’ve done the LA thing! A few years ago, I gave it a go and it was… interesting. I’m glad I waited until later in life — I’m not sure the younger me would’ve coped with it, to be honest. It’s not as exciting as you’d think.

Who would you love to work with that you haven’t yet had the chance to?

There are so many wonderful people I’ve had the pleasure of working with — from Dame Judi Dench to Vanessa Redgrave. But Helen Mirren? She’d be a dream. She’s just superb.

You famously dated legendary director Danny Boyle. Are you in a relationship now?

Oh dear, Danny! It’s wonderful how well he’s done. Yes, we’re still in touch — I called him when he won the Golden Globe to congratulate him. And yes, I am in a relationship. Silence! (laughs) — They’re not in the business, but I’m happy.

Quickfire Round

City or beach break?
Oh, beach break.

Your favourite place in London?
The Tate Modern — I just love it there.

What film would you take your partner to see?
Without a doubt, Some Like It Hot — Jack Lemmon, Tony Curtis, Marilyn Monroe. It’s perfect in so many ways.

Chinese or Japanese food?
Japanese.

If you were Mayor for a day, what one thing would you change about London?
This won’t make me popular, but I don’t care — get rid of those cycle lanes! They make the roads worse.

MUSIK – Starring Frances Barber
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Steven’s Viewz: April“Go Mickey”

There is no doubt that Mickey Rourke has been the best thing to happen to Celebrity Big Brother this year. He is a fascinating mix of Victor Meldrew’s grumpy bluntness and Keith Richards’ wild, unpredictable charm. Arriving with no filter whatsoever and the wide-eyed confusion of Alice falling through the looking glass, he often seems unsure of exactly where he is. It’s not only comedy gold; it’s also a stark reminder of how hypersensitive our society has become — many ready to cry into their decaf almond milk lattes at the slightest provocation.

I had the pleasure of meeting Mr. Rourke many years ago at The Abbey Coffee Shop in West Hollywood, back when he was dating Carrie Otis. The Abbey, a famous LGBTQ+ venue, was buzzing as usual. Rourke, accompanied by his two beloved dogs, stopped me to ask about mine. We chatted briefly (I’ll admit I was a little starstruck — Angel Heart remains one of my all-time favourite films). My point is this: Mickey Rourke is not homophobic. He simply comes from a different time. The man is 72 years old. Perhaps, unlike some of the more publicity-hungry contestants, he doesn’t feel the need to self-censor or meticulously filter every word he utters.

My instinct tells me that JoJo might have handled the situation differently had she not been so consistently stunned — she often wore the look of a “rabbit in the headlights.” Fortunately, Chris Hughes, the charming and grounded contestant every parent would approve of, stepped in calmly to defend her. He restored order with dignity and compassion, providing a rare and refreshing moment of true humanity in a show increasingly dominated by outrage culture.

Chris Hughes the man you want your son or daughter to bring home

Let’s be honest: in the real world, prejudice and inappropriate comments are unfortunate realities many people will face. Mickey’s comments weren’t right, but they also didn’t merit his removal from the house. What’s needed is guidance and understanding, not instant condemnation and cancellation. We must be able to differentiate between malice and ignorance, between true harm and clumsy missteps.

Predictably, it wasn’t long before others saw an opportunity to capitalize on the situation. Donna Preston, a comedian by profession, was told by Rourke — while he lounged under an LED face mask — “You are what you eat.” Rather than respond with wit or humor, she ran crying to her team. For someone who makes a living out of comedy, it was a surprising reaction. Where was the banter, the quick retort that a seasoned performer should deliver with ease?

Donna Preston easily offended .

At this point, I began to feel genuinely sorry for Rourke. Things only deteriorated further when Patsy Palmer took offense at a mild comment about her cooking and ended up in tears. It begs the question: where has resilience gone? Life is full of difficult people who speak bluntly or unkindly. If we are reduced to tears by every offhand remark, how will we cope with the harsher realities that life inevitably throws our way?

Patsy non chewable broccoli leads to tears

As many know, I am a strong advocate for mental health awareness. I have faced my own battles with depression and anxiety. However, one of the most important lessons I have learned is the value of resilience. The only way to overcome bullies and unkind individuals is to develop inner strength. If we allow their words to break us, then they have won.

In my childhood, my imagination became my sanctuary. It helped me navigate bullying at both school and home, allowing me to rise above it rather than be crushed by it. Today, while mental health education is crucial, it is equally important that we teach children and young adults how to endure adversity. Bullying and cruelty will never disappear entirely. Learning how to manage, respond, and thrive despite them is essential.

Celebrity Big Brother has, perhaps unintentionally, become a mirror reflecting today’s cultural fragility. And frankly, it’s worrying.

We need a generation that can distinguish between genuine harm and an ill-judged comment. We need young people who can face challenges head-on, who can understand intent rather than automatically assuming the worst, and who can survive — and even thrive — in a world that will not always be kind.

Toughness doesn’t mean lacking empathy or kindness. It means having the inner strength to pick yourself up after a setback, to laugh off the jibes, and to rise above the noise. Without it, we risk raising a generation ill-equipped for real life.

Mickey Rourke’s stint on CBB might just end up being more than television entertainment. It might serve as a wake-up call about where we are heading — and a reminder of the resilience we so desperately need to reclaim.

Massive props to Danny Beard — he’s not just bringing the yeast to the bread, he’s practically baking a whole bakery at this point! As for Trisha… well, I’ll spare you the rant, but let’s just say Michael Fabricant and I are singing from the same hymn sheet.

Now, if Mikey manages to hang on much longer, he might just sneak a win — stranger things have happened! That said, my money’s still firmly on Chris or Danny to take the crown.

Danny Beard bringing the laughs to the CBB House .

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Best buy for Summer FM London .

Steven’s Hot Tip https://fmlondon.co.uk/collections/underwear

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No matter how good David Beckham looks in his BOSS underpants, there is absolutely no way I am paying £45 or more for a pack of three. Even if he personally delivered them to my door, it would still be a firm no from me.

It’s not that I’m being tight with money — far from it. I live a very busy and active life, constantly working out, dashing from place to place, and keeping on top of everything. For me, my underpants need to be practical above all else. They must offer strength, durability, and a feel-good factor against my skin. In short, they have to work hard and feel great at the same time.

From my personal experience, even some of the big-name designer brands don’t always deliver. In fact, some of them don’t last much longer than cheaper alternatives, and when you’re paying prices that rival the cost of a good pair of jeans, it’s hard not to feel resentful. I still want to look and feel good in my underwear, of course, especially with summer fast approaching. Warmer weather means I’ll be out and about a lot more, and let’s be honest — I’ll probably need to change my underpants at least twice a day.

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Now, here’s the great news. Listen up, boys, girls, and everyone in between who loves staying up to date with the latest must-have fashion in men’s underwear. I have found the very best option out there — and it won’t break the bank!

Not only does it look fantastic on, but it feels absolutely incredible. Your body can breathe, the fit is spot-on, and you won’t believe the comfort. The brand you need to know about is FM London. Trust me, this is going to be the most talked-about brand very soon.

FM London started back in 2015 with three brothers who were completely fed up with paying ridiculous prices for basic clothing. They decided to do something about it and created a no-fuss brand that delivers real quality without the hefty price tag.

When it comes to men’s socks and underpants, these guys are truly onto a winner. Their underwear offers everything you could possibly want:

  • A stretchy, ergonomic fit
  • A cotton-rich blend that feels soft and breathable
  • Anti-chafing design for all-day comfort
  • Odour-fighting technology to keep you feeling fresh

This is my top recommendation for the summer — affordable, comfortable, and practical. Plus, they still look great enough to wear on a date night (whatever that is these days!) and bring a little bit of sexy back into your wardrobe.

So if you want to feel good, look good, and not spend a fortune, check them out. Trust me, your underwear drawer will thank you.

👉 Check them out here

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Spoiling It for the Others

Why “Dead Life” Will Seriously Affect Us All

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IyPhuLb4EZQ Peter Tatchell fights for us all to be who we are .

We are living in an era where serious fraud is celebrated, and the tale of The Emperor’s New Clothes feels more like reality than fiction. If you dare to point out the truth—that the emperor is, in fact, naked—you might find yourself in court. It’s an utterly unhinged world we live in.

I am at a lovely lunch in the heart of Essex, a place synonymous with spray tans, hair extensions, Botox, and outrageously long lashes. To say the least, I fit right in. My gorgeous companion has abandoned extensions yet looks stunning, appearing even fresher and more youthful than the rest. She is what I would call real. When she did go the false route, she never told tall tales or passed them off as her own. She is genuine—in fact, we once joked about the extensions needing food parcels. If she had lied, I wouldn’t trust her.

So, when I recently noticed a trans woman using what I find to be the most troubling and manipulative card of all—the “Dead Life” card—I was deeply concerned. And now, everyone is expected to either accept her version of events or face being sued. This isn’t a joke—it’s a serious issue.

For those unaware, the “Dead Life” concept allows individuals who have transitioned to rewrite their past. Not only can they change their pronouns (I am totally with)  but in some cases, they can craft entire fictional histories for themselves—transforming their previous existence into something entirely unrecognisable. A bit like The Lion, the Witch, and the Wardrobe, where a whole new world is created from imagination.

Now, let me be absolutely clear: I have had the privilege of knowing many incredible, talented, and brave trans women. They have undergone their journeys to become their authentic selves, and in my eyes, they are now—rightfully—women. Interestingly, none of them have resorted to the “Dead Life” tactic. Instead, they have spoken openly about their lives, their struggles, and their triumphs, offering guidance and inspiration to others. One such example is the incredibly lovely India Willoughby, newsreader and presenter.

Gorgeous and talented India Willoughby and asset to us all and role model for the trans community.

However, let’s consider a different scenario. Suppose I told you that, at 16, I was an astronaut and had a torrid affair with Madonna. That would be an outright lie (all but  an amusing one). At 16, I was, like many others, just a regular teenager experiencing life. But here’s the difference: if I were to publish a book claiming such fabrications as fact, people would rightfully call it out as nonsense.

Madonna called for you to “Express yourself ” not lie .

So why is it that a trans woman can write a memoir claiming that, at 17, she was a stunning young woman having an affair with a well-known pop star (now deceased)—when, in reality, at that time, she was a 17-year-old boy with acne? The claim that she auditioned for a well-known girl band when she would have needed a good shave for that is also questionable. But what’s really worrying is the superimposition of pictures of herself as a girl into family photos when, in fact, she was a boy.

How can publishers allow this and sell it to an unsuspecting public? It is deceitful. Should we sue?

Even newspapers are reporting such blatant fabrications as truth. It makes Trump’s propaganda look like child’s play. As a community are we not all up in arms about his lies ? 

Lies are not facts. Yet, we live in a time where, if The Emperor’s New Clothes were rewritten today, the boy who dared to shout, “He’s naked!” would be the one dragged into court. It’s insanity. Serious fraud is being rewarded, and if you speak out against it, you are painted as the villain.

Now, I am sure that many trans women who invoke the “Dead Life” narrative are simply living their lives quietly and not publishing books filled with fabricated stories. But as a community, we are in danger.

On 5 March, Legendary Children (All Of Them Queer) screened for the first time in London to a sold-out crowd. The screening marked the end of LGBT+ History Month and was followed by a Q&A with human rights campaigner, Peter Tatchell, who said he hopes the film inspires others towards activism.

Peter Tatchell made an incredibly insightful point. He doesn’t just work within LGBTQ+ charities; he also volunteers in a range of organizations, including those within religious communities that have historically been homophobic. By leading through example—by showing up, engaging, and being part of these spaces—he changes minds. That is real activism.

A humble hero Peter Thatchell

Many trans people do not wish to be part of the LGBTQ+ community, and that is their choice. However, for now, they remain within it. They are welcome. But honesty must remain at the core of any community. Without honesty, we lose trust, and once trust is broken, everything begins to crumble.

When a con artist exploits the “Dead Life” card to fabricate a fictional past and present it as fact, we all suffer. We need to hold individuals accountable. My hope is that someone exposes this person for who they truly are—so that they may serve as an example to others not to go down the same route,

Because, at the end of the day, she is spoiling it for the others.

The incredible Boy George and 2hades favourite David Hoyle a star .

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STEVEN LOOKS AT THE BRITS 2025

The legendary Charliexcx

WHY I JUST LOVED THE BRIT AWARDS THIS YEAR

Yes, the BRIT Awards can sometimes be a cringe-fest, and let’s be honest—Jack Whitehall is no Ricky Gervais, no matter how hard he tries. But, without a doubt, he’s a far better choice than some of the past hosts. One thing is certain: the BRITs always pack a punch.

Who could forget 1996, when Jarvis Cocker crashed the stage during Michael Jackson’s Earth Song? Jarvis, who was arrested for the stunt, is sadly remembered more for that moment than his music. And Michael? Well… let’s leave that discussion for another time. Then, of course, there was Madonna’s infamous tumble off the stage in 2015—proof that even the Queen of Pop isn’t immune to a high-fashion mishap or falling iff her high horse.( we all love her )

Jarvis Bares him bum at the Britts

But as I settled in to watch the 2025 BRIT Awards, it dawned on me just how much incredible talent we have in this country. How the hell do we not run away with the Eurovision crown every year? It took a Canadian to win last time, though, let’s be honest, the brilliant Sam Ryders  was robbed.

This year’s BRITs, however, were a whole new ball game. From start to finish, it was pure magic, and I realized just how out of touch I am with some of today’s hottest artists.

THE HIGHLIGHTS

JACK WHITEHALL—ACTUALLY FUNNY?

Two tea bags or three ? Jack Whitehall does a great job .you almost want to teabag him

Believe it or not, Jack Whitehall was actually hilarious this year. From start to finish, he nailed it. His monkey joke about snorting PG Tips? Priceless. And his parents on the red carpet? Pure comedy gold.

Equally amusing was Danny Dyer’s voice—so artificially butch you’d think he’d accidentally wandered into a gay orgy and slipped on the lube and was trying to convince everyone he was straight.

THE PERFORMANCES

The real magic, though, was in the performances. There wasn’t a single act I watched that didn’t blow me away—and I say that as someone with pretty eclectic taste in music.

The production was simply stunning. Kicking off with Sabrina Carpenter was a bold choice, even if she visually borrowed inspiration of 90% of her act from Madonna (who, let’s not forget, also did the kilted guards routine a while back).

Jade Thirlwall, after winning Best Pop Act, delivered an iconic performance of Angel of My Dreams. Though, who on earth thought turning her into Gemma Collins with a blonde wig was a good idea? It distracted from what was her first solo BRITs performance since stepping away from Little Mix.

Jade gives an iconic performance but ditch the blonde wig .

The undeniable star of the night was Charli XCX. I’ll admit, I only really knew of her because she’s engaged to George Daniel from The 1975 (don’t scream at me), but after doing some homework—wow. What an exciting and uniquely talented artist. Her album BRAT is already shaping up to be legendary. It’s a shame she didn’t perform, but honestly, watching her down espresso martinis, sip bubbly, and cuddle up to a hunk? A girl after my own heart.

An expresso martini and bubbly and a hunk on her arm my kind of gal Charliexcx

THE SHOW-STEALERS

Teddy Swims could wear his old bedding on stage, and I’d still be mesmerised by that voice. #Awesome. The award for humility, however, goes to Myles Smith—definitely one to watch.

Teddy Swims a mesmerising voice .

Stormzy who did not perform Ezra Collective delivered brilliant performance, proving yet again why they’re some of the best musicians out there. But guys, let’s dial down the God talk a bit—unless, of course, He can explain why Trump is still looming over the White House and why the world is in the state it’s in. A simple “ta” would suffice.

Sam Fender? What a Northern powerhouse. Pure talent, down-to-earth, and humble—just what we love to see. The Last Dinner Party also delivered an incredible performance, proving they are a force to be reckoned with.

And last, but certainly not least, a shoutout to the absolutely addictive Lola Young, who performed Messy—a song that will no doubt become an anthem for a generation. I truly cannot wait to see what she does next; she’s got me hooked.

A. Star is born Lola Young we are all addicted to you .

FINAL THOUGHTS

This year’s BRITs were, without a doubt, the best yet. A true celebration of the sheer amount of talent we have in this country. We are incredibly lucky to have these artists pushing the boundaries of music and performance.

Here’s to 2026!

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Steven’s Viewz

Steven’s Viewz this month looks at Kevin Spacey’s moral character reference and why we need to support Meghan—no matter what. She could be saving our prince. Just some of the topics
A good character reference?
Elton John highly a character reference when it comes to morals .

Having been out since I was 16, I am all too aware of how easily young gay men can be taken advantage of by older men. Listening to Kevin Spacey’s tale of woe on Piers Morgan Uncensored, I wanted to believe that, in some way, he was also a victim in all of this. God knows that many famous people are unfairly labeled with all sorts of accusations or thrown into the relentless churn of the rumor mill.

However, after watching Spacey Unmasked, the Channel 4 documentary, I found the testimonies of the men and boys who spoke out to have a disturbingly familiar tone—one that often accompanies stories of predatory behavior. Yes, there will always be those willing to drop their pants for a role, but many of the accounts felt genuine, resonating with a painful truth. As gay men, we are often hesitant to report such experiences because, more often than not, it doesn’t end well for us.

Oddly enough, for a brief moment during Spacey’s interview with Piers Morgan, I found myself almost swayed by his performance. He threw everything into his plea for sympathy—short of invoking a fire in an orphanage. But then came the real clanger: his choice of a character reference for morality—Elton John.

I couldn’t help but scoff at that. When I had just turned 16, I was invited to Elton’s Windsor home, where I was greeted with a gin and tonic upon arrival and many more . Let’s just say, Elton is no gentleman, and he is certainly not someone who should be vouching for another man’s moral standing. Perhaps birds of a feather do flock together.

But ultimately, my support is 100% with the victims—and with Guy Pearce. Guy doesn’t need to “grow up,” as Spacey has suggested. He has bravely spoken out, and that takes real courage.

The brilliant Guy Pearce .

https://www.channel4.com/programmes/spacey-unmasked

The ‘Teenage Dream’ but at what price ?

Why We Might Need to Back Off Meghan—She Could Be Saving Our Prince

There is no doubt in my mind that Meghan Markle is a needy actress who threw the Royal Family—and, by extension, the UK—under the bus. There she was, on Oprah Winfrey’s show, claiming she had never Googled the Royal Family before stepping into her new role, crown at the ready, as if preparing for a remake of The Princess Diaries. But let’s be real—Meghan’s generation reads reviews before trying a new coffee shop, so the idea that she never researched the most famous family in the world is preposterous.

Yes, there is an undeniable love between Meghan and Harry—let’s not question that. But let’s also acknowledge the possibility that she thought she was stepping into the role of a lifetime, only to find that reality fell short of her expectations. Like some theatrical personalities, who—much like Tinker Bell —wilt without attention, Meghan was never going to quietly settle into a domestic life in Santa Barbara.

Still, let’s hope that in five years, she isn’t back on Oprah, sharing a new tale of marital woes. If that happens, perhaps we, as a society, will take Harry back as the prodigal son, recognizing that many of his struggles were shaped by the world around him.

However, we may need to consider an alternative perspective—what if Meghan is actually Harry’s anchor? What if she is the one keeping him safe? There have long been whispers about Prince Harry’s struggles, and if he is indeed battling addiction, then Meghan could be the very thing standing between him and a downward spiral. For that, we should be grateful.

Let’s not forget—how could a man who was forced to walk behind his mother’s coffin as a child not carry deep trauma? The traditional British stiff upper lip no longer fits in today’s world, and while Prince William appears to be managing well (at least outwardly), we cannot know for sure what his mental health looks like behind closed doors. What we do know is that Harry has always been more emotionally expressive, and his struggles have been more visible.

If he is indeed living with addiction, we must remember that it is an illness—not something that can be cured, only managed. While rehab and 12-step programs can be effective, one of the most powerful factors in long-term recovery is finding love, stability, and commitment. Addicts often find strength in relationships where they can anchor each other, and if that is what Meghan provides for Harry, then we should acknowledge and respect it.

Yes, there is always the risk that if their relationship collapses, old demons may resurface. But for now, Meghan makes Harry happy. And perhaps, for all he has endured, we owe him at least that—to simply smile and wave, as I like to put it. After everything he has been through, doesn’t he deserve a little peace?

Review: Emilia Pérez – A Triumph for the LGBTQ+ Community

A huge shout out to for Emilia Perez

The Oscar-nominated film Emilia Pérez is a groundbreaking and empowering story that brings much-needed representation to the LGBTQ+ community. Blending crime, drama, and musical elements, the film tells a powerful story of identity, transformation, and redemption.

One of its greatest strengths is its nuanced portrayal of a transgender protagonist, offering visibility and depth rarely seen in mainstream cinema. With stunning performances, particularly from trans actress Karla Sofía Gascón, Emilia Pérezchallenges stereotypes and highlights the resilience and humanity of transgender individuals.

Beyond representation, the film is a testament to acceptance and self-discovery, making it a vital and uplifting piece of cinema for the LGBTQ+ community and beyond. It’s a must-watch for those seeking a film that is both socially significant and artistically brilliant.

Bob the Drag Queen is just mean .

With great power comes great responsibility
RU PAUL (AND, TO BE FAIR, OTHERS GOING AS FAR BACK AS THE FRENCH REVOLUTION!)

https://talesofasinglemiddleagedgayman.blogspot.com/2022/01/tales-of-single-middle-aged-gay-man_19.html

The way forward for LGBTQ people involves encouraging the media and LGBTQ figureheads to educate the public, inform them about our culture, and highlight our constant struggle for equal rights.

What an incredible job The Vivienne has done for the community! Many of RuPaul’s queens have raised the bar, and the younger generation can’t get enough.

However, I have been critical of Baga Chipz—when she had airtime, she often wasted it on crude comments rather than embracing Pride. Equally disappointing was Bob The Drag Queen, in USA’ The Traitors who came across as mean and unpleasant. He brought nothing to make you love him or challenge stereotypes. What a shame! His quick judgments on others’ clothing made for embarrassing viewing in an otherwise brilliant show.

https://www.bbc.co.uk/iplayer/episode/m002787p/the-traitors-us-series-3-1-let-battle-commence

RIP The wonderful Vivienne

In Loving Memory of The Vivienne

The world has lost a true icon with the passing of The Vivienne. As the first winner of RuPaul’s Drag Race UK, she captivated audiences with her wit, talent, and undeniable star power. A trailblazer in the drag community, she used her platform to inspire, entertain, and advocate for LGBTQ+ rights. Her humor, charisma, and flawless performances made her a beloved figure, not just in the UK but across the world. Beyond the glamour, The Vivienne’s kindness and authenticity touched countless lives, leaving a legacy that will shine on forever. Rest in power, queen—you will never be forgotten. 🌹💔

I am proud to be part of this https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gKf1CT9vel4

LONDON Q&A video with international Human Rights campaigner PETER TATCHELL and director ROB FALCONER talking about LEGENDARY CHILDREN [ALL OF THEM QUEER].

The Pride 50 movie screens 5th March as the official closing event of LGBT+ HIstory Month 2025 at Curzon Bloomsbury cinema WC1. BSL Signed Performance. Peter talks to Gateway 97.8 Radio’s Aston Avery and Steven Smith about the film. Rob talks to the Lighthouse Cinema audience after its popular show there.

Peter and many of the cast will be attending the Curzon Bloomsbury show on March 5th in London’s West End. Showing with Legendary Children, The Fragility of Freedom (The Dora Love Prize 2024) meets astonishing school-age human rights defenders taking part in annual youth education project The Dora Love Prize, inspired by notable Holocaust survivor the late Dora Love. Both films also HoH captioned. 15 advisory. Closed Captions. Features music from the film by Tall Houses (courtesy Cat Likes Gravy Music 2025). #LGBTplusHM, #Pride, #LoveIsLove, #LGBTQ, #LGBTQIA, #LGBTQIA, #LoveWins, #Equality, #TransEquality, #LegendaryChildren, #PrideInLondon, #IntersectingIdentities, #LGBTQIA, #educateOUTprejudice, #winterpridemaspalomas, @TallHouses

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Unleash Confidence through Acting: A Women & Non-Binary Workshop

Louise Osbourne is set to conduct an ‘Act As If You‘ workshop in Birmingham and London in March to bring a fresh perspective to acting
Who knew you could perform your way into reclaiming the real you?
Louise Osbourne with a student in her class, Acting For Screen in Birmingham

Actor and acting coach, Louise Osbourne has combined the art of acting with building self-confidence into a workshop called ‘Act As If You’ specifically for women and non-binary people.

The course focuses on nurturing the inner self and gathering communication tools to thrive in personal and professional environments.

Louise seems to have cracked the code with her expertise to empower women and non-binary people to find their voice through acting and improv.

Louise said, “For 14 years I’ve been doing acting classes in Birmingham for people from 16 upwards all levels of ability and what I noticed was that men and women but definitely mainly women would come to my class not necessarily to go down the path of trying to get an agent and trying to book acting jobs and auditions, but they had lost their identity. Whether that was from marriage or children, and Birmingham is a very Asian multicultural city so a lot of it’s from marriage and not working anymore, they’d have their children or their children would be a little bit older and they’d come to my acting class, not thinking about acting but actually because they gain confidence.”

Before she came back to Birmingham in 2011 to become an acting coach, she had a blistering career in the States as an actor and worked with several award-winning actors.

During this time she noticed that some pretty big names in Hollywood were still nervous first day on the set and found it interesting.

Louise said, “I’ve worked with Catherine Zeta-Jones and Warren Beatty and Diane Keaton and Goldie Hawn and everybody’s nervous, everybody! It was mind-blowing for me because I was like, there’s no way these seasoned Oscar winning actors are nervous but everybody’s afraid they’re not gonna be believable. I think sometimes it’s almost harder for them because they’ve got to do better than their last best show, because they’ve already reached a level and your next thing has to top it or else you’re gone.”

Louise Osbourne

This helped her identify that a more holistic approach was needed to uplift one’s confidence to play any role in life.

As a founder herself and an advocate for inclusion, Louise felt called to blend her experience to help women and non-binary people become strong leaders.

Her friend, Samantha Grierson, who has contributed generously through her art to the LGBTQIA+ and neurodivergent communities in Birmingham, saw great potential in Louise’s mission to build a safe environment for women and non-binary people to express themselves freely.

She helped Louise bring her vision to life and continues to support and set up this acting workshop with her.

The primary aim of this workshop is to go beyond acting and dig deeper, let the soul’s voices dance and acknowledge the core identity. 

Louise added, “It’s not even about the acting it’s about taking the mind off the inhibitions and you can get that through playing say improv games, I’ll give them really interesting fun scenarios and I’d roll the camera, they’d have no scripts and they just have to play along. Sometimes at the beginning they’d be very quiet, let other people do the talking and then after a couple of weeks they’d find their place, find their voice and then they’d interject. And then I’d say to the rest of the class that improvisation is about giving and taking. You don’t need to fill every silence, silence is real life, let the silence be. Silence is where things brew from.”

Louise’ students in Birmingham

The last line couldn’t be more true as we all prepare in our silence to present our “best’ selves on various occasions.

It’s almost like an inner dialogue or conflict that needs to stretch out thin until our minds can finally be satisfied with a fitting approach. So much of this is caused by overthinking, social anxiety and in some cases, cultural upbringing and sexual identity as well.

Women and non-binary people have struggled to assert their voices in male dominant environments. They feel dismissed, overlooked and often forgotten. 

Louise’s workshop provides the perfect platform for participants to train their inner voice and not feel ashamed to speak up. And to become comfortable with the idea of voicing out their needs and wants to the fullest.

Louise continued, “We have had so much stuff holding us back as females and non-binary that it’s time to kind of step up and speak for ourselves. My belief is that if we all have that inner confidence that we do deserve a seat at this table and feel important from within, it won’t feel like we’re there just to tick a box.

I think that’s what we need to get our heads around, we need to make sure that we are not sitting at that table because they have promised the shareholders that they’re more inclusive. It’s like oh yeah we’ve got a non-binary, tick! We’ve got a woman, tick! But no voice? Screw that. We need to make sure that if we’ve got a place at the table that our voice is just as heard as everybody else around that board.”

Louise brings a rather powerful yet light-hearted approach to trigger a change that women and non-binary people can utilise as a launch-pad to acquire any position in our society or the corporate world.

Acting isn’t always a piece of cake but what is capitalism without a little performance? In the famous words of a TED talker I don’t remember, “You have to fake to not only make it, but become it.”

The art of performance is used to churn out versions of oneself that were suppressed, Louise intends to unwrap those gifts that reside within. 

By urging her audience to create their own compelling narrative, uniqueness comes to life with a little artistic direction, reassurance and a whole lot of fun.

Behind the scenes of Acting For Screen

Louise added, “There’s got to be a lot of laughs in my class, I want people to leave feeling confident but have fun. It’s also about using the fear, switching the fear to be excited about the story you want to tell. So you switch the fear to what you’re pitching about, what your journey is, why should I be telling this story. Why now? At the beginning of the classes I will definitely ask everybody what they want to get out of it and then work with them individually on creating a monologue that’s going to fit into their pitch about their journey. For the first half of the day it’s just going to be improv, it’s just going to be exercising, not thinking about business or anything.

In LA, I’d tell them yeah you’re a teacher, you’re the boys in the class, you’re casting for Matilda. And one of the little boys in the class nailed Matilda, he knew all the songs, he knew everything. He told me he wants to be Matilda but his dad doesn’t want him to be so and then I’ll just roll the camera and it’s really interesting because they have to act. Whether they feel that way or not they still have to go with it and take on that character. Afterwards there’s such a big sigh because it’s not who they are, it’s a different character. Sometimes I make them play two businessmen, and they both end up crying. It’s funny the stuff it brings up. They go, I can’t believe I was crying! A lot of stuff comes to the surface and then you’re way more relaxed and you get more involved in it. I think fear is something, if you switch it, it’s something that can be propelled by you.”

Louise Osbourne mentoring her students

As humans we have a tendency to overestimate the power of fear in our lives. We almost think it’s superior to us and without even trying, we admit defeat and live out our lives not knowing what could’ve been.

Acting as an art-form in general requires an individual to become friends with the chaos lingering inside. There’s a lot of emotional release; you laugh, cry, scream, howl and it almost becomes essential that you feel. 

Louise aims to purge all of these emotions out to make women and non-binary people rediscover themselves as leaders of their own lives.

The purpose of ‘Act As If You’ is to break free from the ordinary constructs of gender roles and eliminate the limiting voices that were given to them without their permission.

For more information about the workshop, go here: https://www.actasifyou.com

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Heidi Gammon’s Christmas agony aunt column

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Happy Christmas, and it is cheer and  happiness for most but not for all. The festive season can raise the grinch and other family nightmares.

But do not fear! Good fairy agony aunt Heidi Gammon is waving her wand and will try to make it all better with her magical advice. 

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Hi Heidi,  

Happy Holidays. Can you help me? I have been seeing my boyfriend for a year now and we are in love. However, I have not introduced him to my family yet. One, he is very domineering (I like that) and never holds back on his opinions.  Two, he is covered in tattoos, hates dressing up and he is a drummer in rock band part time. My mum is super conservative and just about down with me being gay. She actually says that no one with tattoos are welcome in her home.   Mum rang the house, and he picked up and she invited him for Christmas! 

HELP please!!

Mike, Kingston.

Oh bless Mike, talk about being put between a rock and hard place. First of all, you should have dealt with this months ago if you care for boyfriend and mum. You say mum is just about ok with you being gay. Well, it sounds to me like she is making the right moves inviting your partner for Christmas.

If your partner loves you, it is time to sit down and tell him the issues about your mum. You say you like the fact he is dominant and opinionated. There is a difference between that and a narcissist. You let him be himself 364 days a year, but maybe he could think about you for one day, not be a different person but just tone it down a little. If he really cares about you and is not a narcissist he will understand. Until mum gets to know him, box clever and make this day about realising that you need some TLC in this area. Trust me, if he really cares he will work with you. If he can’t, I’ll tell you something he is not dominant, he is just not caring.

Next time you chat to mum, maybe give her a little pre-warning he might not be joining the conservative club any day soon. Just do some groundwork preparation before the big day. Remember: life is short and you need to be happy. Mike, those that say they love you should want the best for you, sometimes that means compromise. 

Happy Christmas my love, write and let me know how It goes. 

Dear Heidi, 

I like to party, but it is high days and low with me. Sheryl my fiancé loves it 24/7 but I am fine with that as she can go out with her gang, and I am not jealous or worried. We are having friends over for Christmas Day and we were going over the menu when she announced,  “I’ll get a few grams in for after”.  Honestly, I have had enough. The only White Christmas I want is on the ground. What do I say? 

Lisa, Chiswick.

Oh no Lisa, oh I have seen this so many times. The marching powder is no-one’s friend. Yes, there seems to be a honeymoon period for many who think it makes them invisible but like any false high, in the end there is always a price to pay. It destroys jobs, relationships and friendships,  not mention it robs your bank account. Once it gets its claws into you, for many there is no escape. Yes, there are those who partake on high and low days, who seem in control like yourself. But Sheryl sounds like she might be heading for a fall. You need to simply say no!  That’s not the Christmas you want. Make your views clear and it might give her a shock, or maybe she’s already hooked and this is the bit she is looking forward to on Christmas day. Then she may need help, but time to realise it’s a slippery slope, and you being an enabler won’t end well .

Hello Heidi, 

How are you, love the column. Now there is no excuse, but I kissed my best friend’s husband on a drunken outing when my bestie was away. It has been over six months I have not seen him or mentioned it to my friend. We are all spending Christmas together this year.  I have not seen my friend’s husband since. It is going to be super awkward. What should I do? Maybe call him and chat about what happened?

Dylan, Brighton. 

Sweetie, if it was just a kiss get over it. People are human and drink is horrible when it comes to making a fool of ourselves. Unless you’re not telling Heidi the whole story, move on and put it behind you. Or if the kiss meant more to you than you’re saying, maybe have word with yourself. He has not been in contact with you since the drunken kiss so perhaps he does not remember it. Take Heidi’s advice: do not do party postmortems and stop making a mountain out of a mole hill. Enjoy your Christmas xxx 

Happy Holidays, Heidi 

Dear Heidi,

My partner Alisha is just gorgeous and we’ve been together for six months. She came out as lesbian late in life, having been married for twenty years.  She has two teenage kids and they are coming for Christmas. Heidi I am terrified. I do not do kids and how do I act? They are very important to Alisha. 

Love Diana. 

Hi Diana, it is not a couple of hyenas coming for Christmas, it is two teenagers (perhaps more terrifying at times). No Diana, can I tell you how to handle it? Be yourself, treat them with respect and take an interest in them, listen and you will be surprised. Please have some basic structure of your expectations to staying in your home as you would with anyone coming to stay. But do not come over like a prison guard. Just try and have fun; they will be as worried as you! 

Love, Heidi

Heidi will be back in the New Year . You can also hear her on Gateway Radio https://www.gateway978.com/blogs/daytime/josie-gibson-reveals-the-most-mind-numbing-things-in-life Tuesday the 26th of November https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9UT6NDE0INI&t=4s and on Youtube.

You can find her on: https://www.counselling-foryou.co.uk/about-us

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